Disco for the inside

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Put on a creased dress that’s a little too small… dance like you’re in Studio 54, rather than your spare room that is an actual building site.

These pictures were taken about a year ago, I remember feeling gross and so stressed while I was taking them. So much so I felt exhausted afterwards. I didn’t want to show them to anyone for the embarrassment was too acute.

A year on, I have put on rather a lot more weight, sold the dress and painted the room white.

But the biggest shift is my awareness of my so often fragile self esteem. How curious now that I look at myself in those pictures and think I look lovely, (not in a big headed way I must assure you.) Simply that, there was absoloutely nothing wrong with me.

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The past two years have been such a journey with regard to how I feel about my appearance. Growing our my grey hair was not liberating, I would say more, freeing.

I was free from the expense and stress of constant colouring, which was a total relief.

Having grey hair however changed my view on femininity so much, I felt much older, colours and styles that had previously been something of a signiature no longer worked and with gaining weight also I found myself not even recognising the women I saw when I peered at my reflection.

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I think because of my anxious nature I did not look at these changes in a positive way, I felt lost and confused as to how to go about finding my style once again.

It probably sounds so vapid, but alongwith other life occurances, I felt very sorry for myself.

Time passing and a lot of work done on myself, with still more to go I know, I feel I am growing accustomed to my new self and don’t want to return to the “old me” there is a lovely new version, never seen before! And it is exciting, not a thing of loss but of incredible gain. To love myself inspite of weight, hair colour and even a lack of ironing skills on occasion has been a challenge worth undertaking.

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The thing I most love about this picture is the sincere way I show my nails, as this was my first ever manicure and I was so proud of how glossy it made me feel. Such a little thing but it truly made me feel some kind of prettiness. I now think what a shame and want to give that version of me a hug. But the way I am feeling these days a high five for all I have achieved would be more appropriate I think.

 

Fin xx

 

Dress: Vintage Topshop via Oxfam, Shoes Vintage via Sue Ryder.

Autumn already?

 

No one ever wants to wish the sunshine away. Especially all of us in the British Isles that never usually really experience a summer.

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But, the highstreet dictates that August means Autumn with the bombardment so far of leopard prints, silky satin midi’s and less basket bags than we’ve seen for quite some time!

And so we follow, lured in by the refreshing feeling of the “new” and I have to say having worked in retail for more years than I care to remember, I still feel so ready to move the old stock on and bring in the new and the exciting.

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In my non working life this equates to loving the gentle ease of the charity shops adding in old bobbled jumpers and in this case a cotton midi in brown paisley. I know right – DELICIOUS!

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At first, yes, a 1970’s brown paisly midi skirt may not seem your go to transitional skirt, but look at her! She’s gorgeous! I love this little bag too, she’s got the sweetest handle, she is destined for my little Etsy shop – but I had to give her a spin first to make sure she was adorable. She is.

Teddy was far more interested in the ferns which hold a lot of treats if you’re a little puppy.

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The little shirt is so pretty! A sheer cotton with a scalloped edge peter pan collar and tiny skinny bow at her neckline.

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THE SHOES.

Yes, metallic green tiny block heeled ballet pumps,YES.

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If this post is anything to go by I think I might enjoy the forthcoming autumnal weather. Imagine those shoes with thick black tights! Ugh I need a lie down.

 

Fin x x

An unlikely love

Introducing one of the most surprising purchases i’ve made in awhile.

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A pair of mens shorts several sizes too big = all the comfy.

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I ended up being really pleased with this little outfit. The weird shorts with my oldest belt, thrifted accessories and my favourite top of all time.

My classic Breton is 100% cotton and from an amazing local store called Always in Colour

Predominantly menswear they offer THE most gorgeous style. I have a list. A long list. Yup yup.

 

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My little sun baby.

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Breton ALWAYS IN COLOUR: Shorts BERNADOS CHARITY SHOP: Belt (old) GAP: Neck scarf : OXFAM CHARITY SHOP: Russell & Bromley Navy Bag HOSPICECARE CHARITY SHOP: Sandals SALT WATER SANDALS: Sunglasses LE SPECS:

 

Fin x x